it’s a song… quite a good one for your marathon playlist I would say… and I think I am running myself a marathon on Monday…

You might know by now that I am in NO shape to run a marathon, or even a half! I haven’t trained, I haven’t done more than 1 long run since the NYCM in early November, and since I have logged a miserable amount of miles, so … why am I going? Well, I wasn’t thinking I’d do Boston a second time, even though I really enjoyed my 2010 Boston. I think it’s a race that is cool to do once, but after what happened a year ago, I had to find a way to shake the anger off. I was really really really upset, and decided I’d sign up come September. I kept my word, but I wished I had taken the training seriously. I am just really not feeling the marathon distance anymore. I am not loving the long runs (mostly in the cold winter we had) and mostly, I have decided to move away from the full distance. Of course I DID sign up for NYCM 2015 (I am a walking disaster that can’t resist!!!!!!!) but my plan is to just run it…

Anyway, I realized today how amazing it’d be to have a great marathon on Monday. I kept pouring over every up and down and grade and length and steepness of the course and realized it’s a great great great course to run on… if you have trained!!!!! I really got upset that I’d be wasting it. And, not being in marathon shape means I might be suffering a bit and not really enjoying the experience as I would if I had a nice trained pair of legs. Let me write this so I can learn this lesson for the next time… I am a bit sad and upset with myself right now. I am wasting a precious opportunity and doing myself harm for no reason. I know I should have trained, or I shouldn’t be going now. Coulda Woulda Shoulda. IT IS WHAT IT IS.

Changing the vibe a bit… I got some cool stuff online:

The jacket was SOOOOOO freaking cute, but ENORMOUS. It got a Small (there was no xs) and it was HUGE. like, it fit Juan… GR. The same with the shirt, which was cute. the singlet OMG, it’s AMAZING, it’s SO hot… I love the back…

I am sure I’ll find more cool stuff at the expo. Last Boston I run, I SWEAR, so I might as well get some cute stuff, IF IT FITS!!!!

Then… I just sorta did my nails, they ARE NOT FINISHED YET, still need to fix them and put a top coat (but it’s a good time to post… so…)

Now I am going to pack everything in my fridge, in my kitchen, and all my clothes and running shoes and should be ready to go in 2 days. Like I am moving to Boston. I have no idea how I ever did a race in Berlin. I have a packing list curated over the years and I still stress about this and need to bring one of everything (or two if colors can be an issue…!). Okay, if you see me, make sure I am not stressing about how much Monday is gonna hurt and slap me if I am. See you on the other side. Hopefully.

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After this post:

2014 Boston Marathon Pictures – Saturday! 

2014 Boston Marathon Pictures – Sunday

The day before the Boston Marathon…

2014 Boston Marathon: in the books! 

2014 Boston Marathon Race Report: The Best and the Worst of Times  

Boston Marathon Notes: what to do/not do next time